I Always Feel Like Somebody's Watching Me~

My mind is always playing tricks on me. I am one of those people who has trouble separating - subconsciously, this is - reality from fiction. For example, whenever I watch scary movies, I tend to be frightened and paranoid much longer than my friends. It is either I am scared longer, or they just admit to being scared for a shorter period of time. Anyway, during the aftermath of my vieiwng of a horror film, my mind will constantly play tricks on me. I will be driving on a bad country road at night, for example, and I will swear that I saw a person standing in the corner just out of the corner of my eye in the headlights. I am sure that there is never actually anyone there, but the idea, once planted in my brain, makes me more and more scared until, for a while, I avoid the road at night.

That is, actually, a true story. I had watched a zombie movie, Day of the Dead (which was inappropriately named as the entire movie took place at night), and I had to drive home to my dad's house in Petersburg one night soon after. To save time, I cut through the backroads near the high school to get there, even though most of the roads force you to drive 25 miles per hour because of all the potholes. As I was driving down a particularly pothole-ridden road, I just simply panicked. I could never explain to you just why I did, but I did. I drove faster than normal and risked my suspension getting damaged so I would not have to drive on that road any longer than I needed to.

Another way that my mind plays tricks on me is when I am about to go to sleep. I used to be able to sleep in the dark with no sound, but whenever I do not have the lights and some sort of sound on when I go to sleep, it drives me insane in that I can hear everything around me, but I cannot see it. Suddenly, the sound of the heating system sounds like a growl. The cat walking around upstairs is the quiet footsteps of something coming to get me. In this way, my mind plays tricks on me even when I am supposed to be relaxing and resting. It can be annoying at times, but I am slowly accepting that I am perfectly safe...

... Most of the time.